Imagine a dream

Dream ahead
without any intent
All that matters is your tale of what's to come
I hope that I can be in another world away
Away from this, the one that burdens and insists!
I imagine that there's a place for me within a dream
Or did I dream THIS?
I did indeed!

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I wonder where you are
many a times
perhaps I shouldn't ...you hurt me so much!
But I can't control my dreams
they lead me to you
you look surprised, don't know what to do.
It's ok...I do.
I planned this well, I've been fixated, obsessed and ever more!!!
I know what I should say and furthermore...
And that's when I wake.
Perhaps it's best...
you don't deserve me
you never did!

knock knock knock

I know who's there
I know their soul, I fear its stare
But I locked that door many and many a year ago
I hid the key, I bolted the thoughts
promised myself I would not touch that knob!
-knock knock knock-
here it is again
the sound that I hate the uttermost
I'll pretend it's not real
they will not get me, abuse my fear
-knock knock kn...-
it fades away
it fears ME now
and so it shall stay

Wa(l)king away

Waking up. It's dark outside.
I look around me and all is "right"; I am not alone and I am loved.
And yet I can not rest.
I still can hear her. That girl inside me that's full of anger, full of hate.
She's woken up and will not let me rest.
She makes me think of days past,
days full of fear and pain
days that were dark.
I promise her I will not forget and she walks away.
I can not hear her anymore.
Time goes by................................................................
Waking up. It's dawn outside.
I look around me and all IS right; I am not alone and I love you too. 

"draft"

I see the ties that hold you still
on a common path that does not exist
Long ago it has been lost
I see you now
you assume the pose
of someone that I do not know
I see how you desperately try
to forget my name
forget that path

Make it right

I feel at ease and yet distraught. So many times I tried to speak but words were broken, they disappeared. I was at fault, I know that now. But it's too late, I still can't speak...I do not know where to begin. I've nothing left but an empty smile and a lurking hope that it was all worthwhile. That you will look me in the eyes, forget the bad, the wrong, the fight. Just give me a smile that's full of life...just make me smile...make me alive.

So here we are, once more again

So here we are ...
free of our chains.
All of us now starting anew
watching each other from afar, through the smallest looking glass.
I cried for you, I felt alone
wanted to share all that I owned
but I did not know where to start, what to say nor who I was.
So there I was ...
I took my time
wanted to find me outside the doubts
to be alone but not afraid
to build again, and then regain.
And now that I am back
I need you there, to be my friend
forgive and repair.
So here we are ...
I cry to you
feel relieved, feel understood.
I hope you see that all through this time
I did not forget you, how could I? ... our chains were the same, our chains were tight!
I simply waited for you to find
your own way out to the light,
to be complete, to be yourself
so we could say:
"So here we are, once more again..."